July 09, 2002
Gaming by Instinct

Some people game. Some people play. And some people live.

I'm the last sort. I play with all my heart, and very little of my head sometimes. This makes me excellent at characters like Adrienne and have to work a lot harder at characters like Damara.

But I've found that I don't enjoy it when I really have to think. I don't have anything against puzzles in games, but when that is the entire focus of the game, I get bored. I want to *be* my character for a little while. So that means I need things to be within my grasp, so I can channel the character and then they will come up with the response.

Sometimes they surprise me. Or perhaps I surprise myself.

When I was pregnant, I had a real hard time playing Damara. My cognitive abilities were at an all time low, everything sapped by the growing child in my womb. Once Ryan was born, even though I wasn't sleeping, all of a sudden Damara returned to my subconscious and I could play her in my usual style again. And she does things I just don't understand. Damara has a fusion that occurs spontaneously inside of her mind because she looks at things differently than I do. And somehow, even though she's in me and supposedly can really only do things my way, it works.

I do play characters that are different than myself. But I think all of them are drawn from within me somewhere. They must be, at least the best of them, to come alive like they do. And that's why I game, I think, to feel that new personality come alive, thriving and surviving. *happy little sighs*

Posted by Deb Atwood at July 09, 2002 09:32 PM | TrackBack
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That is exactly how I am with my PCs.

OK, not the being pregnant part. But the rest of it is.

Posted by: Ginger on July 9, 2002 11:53 PM

I vary in the styles of characters I play, although I do have one exception: I've discovered over the years that I just don't have it in me to be a truly evil character. I played one online for several years in Gemstone III, but he didn't start out that way and he did have some redeeming qualities. I think.

In tabletop, I prefer playing personas very different from myself, but a lot of that depends on the game system and the GM, to be honest. I've played a lot of games in 24 years of this hobby, and it wasn't until I played TORG that I truly had an amazing gaming group. :)

Posted by: Scott on July 10, 2002 07:39 AM

"And she does things I just don't understand."

I feel the same way about certain characters. They just have lives of their own, and I'm not so much playing them as I am channeling them. It was stronger when I played GemStone III and DragonRealms online, because I'm still a little shy about letting my hair down in tabletop (even when people I've been gaming with for many years). They constantly surprise me, though. I don't work up elaborate background stories for my characters, because I know that their histories will reveal themselves to me as I go along.

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